Wind in the air.

It amazes me that in Hemet the weather is normal and sunny, but then when i get to school it is like the winds of hell have been unleashed. How can the weather be all that different?
I have to dodge tumbleweeds, which I laugh about behind my scarf, and watch out for fly deathtraps. It's like a DnD game come to life.
Haha, so anyways, school is awesome. All of my professors are nice and funny. So i think this semester is going to be awesome.
I think i will post later because my hands are so cold it is hard to type.

Question

I have been reading alot of comments on Christian music videos and one thing kind of confuses me. I think Christian songs can be about things in life. Like a realtionship song and about how you are moving on to something better or something along those the lines. They don't always have to be about praising God and worshiping him. That would be called Praise or Worship music.

Am I wrong in this?

Praying...

I have been praying alot lately. I have been praying for guidence and for God to wash away all this bitterness from me. I think it is working so far. 

I have been thinking about about why i think into things too much. I just have had past experiences that have caused me to double back and look at everything again and again. I know i need to trust the ones i love more, but i just can't help but feel like i am going to get myself hurt if i open up too much. I think it is because i don't have work to cover my mind with like a safety blanket, everything is just there for me to see and look into more than i should. 
I just don't like it when people sugar coat things too much when i ask for the truth. My mother use to do that thinking that it was for the best. 

Ugh, that and I am going to work on quitting smoking come New Year's, that and hitting the gym hard, getting knee deep in school and looking hardcore for work. I have a Palm now and i am trying to stay on top of it to help me reach my goals. Also, i will be getting a unlimited month bus pass, so watch out RTA, here I come.

Photos

I just can't stop taking them. I don't know what it is. I just hope it's not like the other things that i have become obsessed with in the past, i soon give them up and forget about them. I want this one to stick because it makes me happy when i go out and take them.

Wish me luck.

And they took off the restriction! I am so happy. ^^

Blonde

All copyright on the bottle goes to Fiddler's Green Brewing Co. As for the Photo, all rights belong to me.

Nothingness...

I don't really know what I am feeling right now. It's to mixed up to express or put into words. If I had to pick something at this moment I would say numb and empty.
I keep hating myself for feeling this way, like "Stop that Sarah, some how you have always managed." And the good old saying, "This too shall pass." But this still feels like the end for me. I keep trying to push and I get nothing back. There is no give to this feeling that I am trapped in.
I know this sounds awfully emo, but I think we all have to have our emo moments some more than others.
I just feel like I have failed my loved ones and myself. That there is nothing that I can do for them. Everything I try is fruitless. I pray for this feeling to stop but then I just feel even worse.
I know I need to snap myself out of it but it is like I am stuck on repeat. I think I have to close myself off from the world for a bit, but even that is impossible right now.
I just want to sit in the back seat of my mind and just watch my life through my eyes like a bad movie.

This is starting to sound like a sappy emo story.
I'll type more later...

Cool!

I just found out that when your earplugs get unplugged, or in my case ripped out, of the ipod the music pauses. Haha that is sweet. Sometimes I am glad that I am a klutz.